the world is our playground and we will always be home
Sunday, May 07, 2006
'we become divine after every pain
so please, won't you sit through
because everyday
will find reasons to stay
if words are too few
to keep horizons in view
will you go or stay or grow
standing on the edge
between crazy and sense
remember what i said'
- 'the world is our playground and we will always be home', up dharma down
i am an escapist. if there is one part of me that i will always find threatening, it is this. it's one of my greatest security blankets or as psychologists would call it, defense mechanisms. when things, work or relationships start to hurt, i move away, slowly or as fast as i can. it doesn't matter what speed i'm in, as long as i move away. it's instinct. honey once told me that it's ingrained in the male circuitry.
but for the past couple of years, i have been very mindful of my decisions. i left when i knew i needed to leave (not wanted) and stayed when i knew i still had room to grow from these experiences. this year alone, there have been a lot of trials. i wouldn't mention it anymore but i refused to succumb to being houdini.
it is so easy to fall into old habits but we as human beings need to realize that there is always more to it. that life is a dialectic of both freedom and responsibility. and if we choose to do so, the world will indeed become our playground and we will always be home.
posted by lex @ 9:43 AM,
