anticipation
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
a week ago, my brother and my sister-in-law announced that they are pregant and will be having a baby (i love it that they say 'we' and not as a singular person -- that both are at stake and both are involved). even if i have nephews and nieces (sons and daughters of my cousins), this will be a first for our family. an entirely new experience (wow).
for the past few days, i see my brother and his wife with beaming faces. i see my parents so happy to take on their role as grandparents. i see myself filled with curiousity and amazement. i see all of us full of anticipation and hope. i am totally at awe at what this is bringing to our family. my family seems different. different, but good different -- there is a warmth that i can't explain.
i never knew that this is what it would feel like to anticipate birth of someone that you love even before they are born. now i understand how it was like before i was born. that it mattered. that it meant something significant. that it was that it was brought about by a hopefulness that things do get better, that life continues, that love is indeed real.
now i understand.
posted by lex @ 9:16 PM,
