what's on tv?
Friday, February 24, 2006
here's something i wrote a few days ago and it seems that i can't write anything more about it.
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and so, gma has declared the country to be under a "state of emergency". (so how do we resuscitate this country drowning in it's own piss?) not that i actually care much about it (i'd prefer to watch idol over any newscast). don't get me wrong, i love this country a lot. in fact, i'm proud to be a filipino. and if you love something or someone, you must deal with the problems.
it's just numbing after all these years, there's been minimal change and then there's the landslide in leyte (which will most like going to be under the radar for the next few weeks as both administration and opposition play their chess moves). if a problem occurs, both sides are at fault. always, always, always. there are just too many egos floating around.
i was in edsa dos and i felt a certain renewal at that time. there was hope and moreover, national transformation was understood as a change to start with oneself. so now, instead of focusing on the pertinent issues, we find these people engage in a rubber match. stalemate, well, more like stale, i think. because of this (pat yourselves on the back, dear politicians, bravo) we get to be on cnn and bbc. whoopee...
that said, we have not learned how to deal with our problems properly. it's as if when a problem comes up, it's just being swept under the rug or just placed in another room. just like the tragedy of ultra a few weeks ago, just like the refusal to put to court the people who sided with the japanese during wwii, just as the brushing off of the beheading of bonifacio, just as how in many families, we put bahala na as a solution. there is no sense of closure. history has given us a lot and yet we refuse to see it. how do you find strength to do your work when people (that i even voted) fail you left and right? how do you admire people like cory and dinky for uniting with the likes of escudero and binay? i can't understand how people could easily be swayed. are they really after the national reconcilation and renewal or do they have their own agendas?
darn, i need to leave this country, even for a while. this relationship is freakingly taxing. for the meantime, i'll probably stop watching philippine news altogether and just watch american idol.
and can you please pass me the bhutan daily on that coffee table.
posted by lex @ 10:15 PM,
thoughts for the road
Thursday, February 16, 2006
there is always wisdom when i have a conversation with my friend mark. talking with him earlier today was no exception. here are a few of 'em:
13. i deserve to live my best life everyday
14. i am worth it
15. eventually, there will be breakthroughs
posted by lex @ 11:37 PM,
choices, choices, choices
Wednesday, February 15, 2006
i have 3 options when i wake up later:
a. go to baler (all expense paid trip) and surf
b. play disc at the beginners' night in meralco
c. celebrate my brother's birthday in makati (and just play tennis instead in the afternoon)
do i want to get trampled on by 14 foot waves, get utterly tired running up and down the field with disc drills and games, or get fattened up, contented and satisfied (= drunk) by having dinner with family? do i want to learn for free from aussie surfers, enjoy a good game of camaraderie and fun, or deepen family ties with a good dinner conversation? hmmm... choices, indeed. all are compelling but i'll just decide on one when i wake up.
posted by lex @ 1:14 AM,
